I've become one of those women!

Today is Lilith's first full day at school (she will only be going two days a week) and I miss her terribly. The house seems so very empty without her. The cats are loving it, trying to fight over my lap as I write this. It is different than when she is here but napping. I don't have to be quite and expect her to wake up any minute.
I realize that I probably haven't been alone in the house since Lilith was born but perhaps 2 or 3 times and even then it was only for a few hours. I guess I could go take a bubble bath and read a little. I mean I honestly don't know what to do with myself. I've become one of those women that I use to feel sorry for. Seriously, you know the kind, super selfless, live entirely for their children, talk about their children constantly, the kind where you say, my goodness, what did this woman do before she had her wunderkind children?
What the heck! What did I do before I had Lilith?
Has it been so long ago (2 1/2 years!) that I have forgotten what it is like to just be me? not Lilith's mother.
What did I do before Lilith?
I went out with friends a lot, went to the movies, went shopping in stores that carried no toys, or children's clothing. I walked by the baby food isle without a second glance. I had no idea that baby clothes were sized in three month increments. I had never fed a baby or changed a diaper. How things have changed! How priorities have shifted.
My life is both simpler and more complex at the same time now. I had no idea of the love that I was capable of until I had Lilith. I never realized the miracle of creating a little person and having that person grow and develop before my eyes. She is a constant source of amazement to me and my husband. She is starting to have her own little personality and opinions. I truly think the world is a better place because she is in it.
I spoil her and play with her. I love to ask her questions and to get her perspective of things. I spent 30 years indulging myself and it never gave me the pleasure it does to indulge Lilith.
Yes, I am truly one of those women and proud of it.
Guess I will go run my bath now.