carmina's letter

let me clarify for u ok? i have sat here listening toyou bitch about the horrible treatment you recievefrom will for 2 or 3 years now. i am worried, i alsohave been currious what he said to the therapist. ifyou dont want to shera fine you dont have too, but itis rather uncultured to tell me to mind my own damnbisiness and act as tho i am part of your marriagesproblem, and then ask a billion nosy questions aboutmy life. if it is part of your therapy and you feelgood about it, and you guys want to put forth thefeffort good for you it is also not my problem, i havenever made fun of you and have always had your backand intrests in your relationship, an i feel that ihave always been supportive of you. You told me that you hate the fact that when annie isthe subject we always fight, and she acted in a stupidfashion, and is being held on restriction so she cantdo anything stupid again till i get some idea andresourses to figure out what to do, but you come downon my methods, and you act like i am a fool everytimeannie is involved and i am already annoyed, and feellike it is my priveledge to not talk about it if idont want. there is also the fact that kathe told mewhat you and will did while i was there and i have acertain ammount of fear of what lengths you will go tonow, i have blown it off assuming you saw somethingand didnt feel like you could talk to me, and haveeven forgiven, cause i know that at the age annie isat there is lots of conflict. there is stuff thatlooks pretty shitty to people not there, and i admit iwas tired and in a foul assed mood that day and couldsee how it could have been construed as worse than itwas ment, and worse than annie took it her self, iknow i talked to her, and we actually had worked alotof stuff out that next day (for the record i didntfind out all of what you and will did till i had beenhome and was getting ready to move) but altho i washurt that you felt more inclined to do what you didthan talk to me and see what was up, and altho i wassuper mad i got mostly over it, i even gave you achance to tell me yourself and you didnt. inspite ofthat i have been your friend for years, and have agreat deal of caring for you, i was not meaning to ragu about your preg i just wanted tp share what i know,and caution you to be careful. additionslly i thinkpopping up a nasty msg while annie is sitting there sothat she could see the word swingers and ask questionswas just nasty of you, as i pointed out 1 night doesnot a swinger make, and also altho you may be hell onmy moralds yours werent always so perfect either(lauren corneilus, heck my cousin) it is a good thingi talked to annie and told her that i like shelly, andmaybe not in a totally chaste way or it would havemade me furrious which is what you wanted i am sure.in short anna take a pill, your hormones are off youare pregnant, take care of your life, and i will dothe same, cause if the only basis of our friendship isthat we talk trash about each otheres lives then thatis pretty sucky, i hope we can continue to talkwithout the whole judgemental bullshit on both oursides, i am sorry i am skeptical of will but you are alifelong friend and he is busting you down, i hate himcause i care, but will not mention either of ourpersonal lives till you feel like talking about them. I am scared to send this cause it brings the anniemess out in the open, but i feel like if you are myfriend you will see if i didnt care that would havewrecked any chance of me talking to you at all andeveryone from kathe to annie herself is stunned that iam so if you feel like addressing anything else hereyou are welcome to but do me the courtesy of notexpecting me to talk about that right now.C.